So Long 2010…Hello 2011


This is the third year that we have taken this picture. My mom kept her tree up because we forgot to do it on Christmas. Thank you!

Wow, I can’t say that I’m sad to see 2010 go. While there were some high points, 2010 was pretty rough. I think for the majority of 2010 I was a hot mess. That’s not necessarily a bad thing though, like everything else in life, whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. So you may be calling B.S. on that theory right now, and without going into exactly why 2010 was so crappy, I will tell you what I gained from it.

2010 forced me to do a lot of soul-searching and reflecting. I realized that I have become more patient and forgiving than I have ever been. While this would usually be a good thing, I feel like I may have missed the mark and crossed over to being TOO much of a pushover. I have realized that being driven and goal orientated is a good thing and that I really can do anything I set my mind to, even if it takes a hundred years. I have realized that I shouldnt define myself by relationships with others and instead need to value that light that makes me me. These are the internal personal realizations I have come to. While that’s all fine and dandy its always nice to head into the new year with goals from 2010 accomplished. So…I finished more than half my degree and only have about ten months left to finish it all. I have lost 17 pounds and am able to run for more than a city block! Yay me!

If you’re still reading you may be wondering what I have planned for 2011. Well…I plan to assert myself more, but to do it with finesse. I used to hate the fact that I was sooo outspoken and have managed to settle down a lot, but I havent figured out how to handle difficult situations with finesse. I want to accomplish more at work and start playing a bigger role when it comes to representing NAWS Safety. I want to figure out where my line is and make sure I don’t let anyone cross it. And finally the biggest one, I want to be a better mother, always! These are all things that will take continual work. They arent goals that have a finish line, which is fine, because I never see myself as ever being satisfied with who I am. I think I will always want to better myself. This doesn’t mean that I’m not happy with who I am but I think its naive to say that who I am is a polished finished project.

What about the tangible goals for 2011 though? Well, I want to finish my degree finally. I want to run a 5k. I want to quit smoking. Yes, I smoke, yes I know its gross. That’s why I want to quit. Hell that’s why I will quit! I want to take better pictures of Fat Face and I want to finish his baby book. I think I can do all that. Now, I may not accomplish all these things when someone else thinks I should, but they aren’t their goals. They are mine. Now if I can only find a way to tell people with finesse.

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5 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Mom
    Jan 01, 2011 @ 22:12:11

    Don’t you love the pillows that say “Hope”? Appropriate for the New Year don’t you think?

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  2. Robin
    Jan 02, 2011 @ 14:34:44

    The last photo is gorgeous. And I love that the pillow has “Hope” on it. It goes perfectly with this post.

    Good luck with your resolutions. I agree with you about finishing them in your own good time.

    I will soon (on the 19th) be celebrating 10 years of being smoke-free. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done (and that’s saying a lot!), but was well worth the angst, the turmoil, and the effort. If you need any tips or just some encouragement and support, let me know. I’d be glad to help out. I joined a quit smoking group online when I quit (unfortunately it no longer exists). Having someone from the group “sponsor” me (she checked up on me via email at least once a day, more if needed) helped as did having all that support from other people struggling to quit.

    I want to run a 5k this year too. 🙂

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