Change


I read Kim Klassen’s blog a lot and she picks a word every year as her motto. I have never done that before, and to tell you the truth I wasnt going to. While I thought it was a great idea and I loved reading why she choose her word, I figured goals were enough for me this year. That is until I had the urge to do something drastic; like cut my hair! My hair is thick and finally healthy again and down to my waist. I love the color, I love the cut, so why would I want to cut my hair?

Well, my dear cousin pointed out something to me years ago that even I didn’t know about myself. I tend to cut my hair or get a tattoo when something big is going on in my life.  I try to pay more attention now when I start to feel like that.  So I started paying attention today, and came to some conclusions. This year is all about change. Change for the better. I am changing, Sal is changing, and Roman is changing. I couldn’t specifically tell you what I’m changing, because I’m not sure yet. I feel this urge to go do something big. I have always had this driven nature, and I’m not sure where it will take me. I feel that I perform best during high pressure situations and where I have a lot of responsibility. Who’s knows though, maybe I will learn to love low pressure and the slow lane this year. Sal is going back to school and making big moves when it comes to work. Both of which are huge things! And Roman, well Roman is constantly in a state of change. He’s learning more and more every day. He’s growing right in front of my eyes! This year he will be switching from the home day care that he’s been at since he was 3 months old to preschool. With all of the change, it’s that one change of Roman’s that is getting to me the most.

I feel like he’s been there so long they are his family and he is their family. I worry about how he will like school, and if I am making the right decision. His day care provider has taught him a ton, and loved him like his own. I worry about the bond they have and if separating them is the right thing to do. It makes me sick to my stomach to think that I am making the wrong decision, but in the end I know that preschool will be great, and she will always be involved one way or another. After all, she is one of my dearest friends. And when we have another one, I hope she’ll be ready to take crazy Ramirez kid #3!

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8 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Denise
    Jan 25, 2011 @ 22:07:46

    You arent alone. I worried when I went back to work and Leah stayed home with family, then again when she went from home to daycare and again when she moved to the toddler room. I’m thinking every change will be hardest on me.

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  2. Mom
    Jan 25, 2011 @ 23:16:08

    It never got any easier for me! Ya just have to pray you are getting it right and it wont scar them toooo bad:) You are doing a wonderful job darlin. And your hair IS looking beautiful. Love you

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  3. David Williams
    Jan 26, 2011 @ 06:20:39

    Change…what a thing it is, good, bad, indifferent, wonderful, scary…I could go on and on. We felt the same way with Cait when she moved into preschool (from home) and of course, she did awesome. Kids are really resilient and, from what I’ve seen, deal with changes rather well! Actually, I really think they deal much better than we do, as parents, with changes going on in their lives. Hang in there is all I can say, there will be many more changes to come (my son is going out on his first date next week…aaccckkkkk)!

    Love the photo, the lighting really adds a great touch to it. I wouldn’t have thought of using a texture but it certainly works!

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    • Miss Morgans 365 Days of Photos
      Jan 26, 2011 @ 10:21:57

      Im amazed at what kids survive through. I think I take things much harder than he does. And I cant believe your son is going on his first date! How exciting and scary for him and you! Let us all know how it goes!

      About the texture, I put texture on pictures of things that arent really that important. I wasnt ever going to hang that picture on my wall so I played with it. I would love to learn more about it so I can use it in a way that I would want to display it after the texture, but I need to start taking pictures I want to hang on my wall first ;).

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  4. linzfrentrop
    Jan 26, 2011 @ 11:38:12

    Cool picture! I like the focus and the grungy texture and colors.
    *Cheers* to all of your changes being positive ones!

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